we. are. invincible

our_mantra @ 2009-06-15T15:21:00

2009-06-15T20:28:28Z

i'm too fucking busy for my own good and when i have 5 minutes to do whatever, i fill out a survey on fucking livejournal.

thats life.

Last person you shared food with?
i made popcorn for kelly.

Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?
whatever.

Did you speak with your father today?
no

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
no

Are you shy?
no

Could things possibly get any better?
yes. i could get laid.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
always

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
towel lol

Can you see a cat from where you're sitting?
no

Have you kissed anyone in the past 10 days?
no

Were you ever obsessed with Vitamin Water?
dude. its water. no.

Do you ever crack your knuckles/ back/ ankles/ wrists/ etc?
knuckles and back. and wait yeah all of those.

Do you love the last person you called today?
it was my sister, so yeah i guess. haha

Could you date someone taller than you?
yes. if they exist.

Do you like your life right now?
i'm exhausted.

Do you need to say anything to someone?
i guess.

Do you think before you speak?
normally.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
all the time.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
i dont know.

Do you wear glasses?
yes.

What do your friends call you?
alyssa.
rachel calls me gir.
a lot of different things

Lyrics from the song you're listening to?
i am not listening to a song

You're thinking about someone, aren't you?
a little, not really.

Was today better than yesterday?
yes i'm not at work.

Honestly, what's running through your mind?
i dont have to work.

Have you ever asked a girl for advice?
yes

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
i called in.

Ever kissed under water?
no?

What color shirt are you wearing?
brown towel.

Do you straighten your hair often?
errrr day.

Who was the last person you saw in person?
my sister.

How are you feeling?
whatev.

Is there something you're not looking forward to?
school tomorrow.

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
kelly called me cute last night.

How late did you stay up last night?
2.

Is anyone on your bad side?
sure.

Do you think boys truly understand girls?
i think most girls don't understand themselves.

What is one word you seem to always misspell that you know you shouldn't?
none.

Choose: bonfire on a beach or clubbing in the city?
bonfire

What are you doing for your next birthday?
getting hammered. def.

Who was the last person to write on your wall?
ashley mughlsjaf about getting her hair cut

Would you say that you are an intelligent person?
yeah, especially compared to a lot of the people i'm around daily.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
i dont know.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
sure.

Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it?
everyone.

Are you usually wide awake in the morning?
HELL no.

What was the last movie you watched?
jurassic park last night.

Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?
uh yeah.

What is something that you realized today?
i'm really good at excuses.

Do you ever use words like stoked, souped or sick?
stoked and sick. souped is gay.

What is something your friends make fun of you for?
saying "yeah dude" every 2 minutes.

Do you ever get a text saying good morning?
like once.

Ever been lied to by someone you thought would never lie to you?
probably.

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
uhhhhh chris. boy.

Do you think anyone's lying to you right now?
i dont know. no.

What color is your digital camera?
dark blue and scratched and dented likea motherfucker.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
ross/ryan/chris texted me.

Last person you told a secret to?
probably ruthy.

Do you like hugs and kisses?
sure?

When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
on saturday with talia and rachel

our_mantra @ 2009-05-07T17:47:00

2009-05-07T22:45:20Z

hey.

our_mantra @ 2009-04-22T17:30:00

2009-04-22T22:30:34Z

when i logged into my livejournal today, ruthys' post about weed was the only one up because NO ONE goes on this shit no more.

snap.

our_mantra @ 2009-04-03T17:36:00

2009-03-06T23:38:50Z

Today:

Drove to Burlington High School to do hair for nerdy girls and watch emo kids make the fuck out

Rear ended a mini van. But theres no damage.

Went to school to find out my makeup designs won for the style show on Wednesday.
So I have to lead 2 out of 4 teams for makeup! Which is fucking awesome seeing as I dont know how to do makeup on a real fucking person!!!!!!

Fuck.

our_mantra @ 2009-03-28T18:07:00

2009-03-01T00:08:27Z

all anyone does on livejournal is
1) surveys
2) bitch
3) advertise.

4) say what other people do on livejournal.

our_mantra @ 2009-03-24T17:49:00

2009-02-24T23:50:46Z

I hate my life.

But I can come to peace with the fact that my life sucks.

So I'm not depressed about it.

But nothing works out how I want it to and nothing is ever just simple for me and I'm really broke now and out 800 or more dollars because I hit my mom's friend's car. Which is a Mustang.

But I've literally just accepted the fact that I hate my life.

Cool.

our_mantra @ 2009-02-13T20:19:00

2009-02-14T02:32:43Z

. will you answer every question honestly? sure
2. have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high? deffff
3. have you ever punched anyone in the face? at shows when i was hardcore.
4. do you miss anything or anyone? i miss everyone.
5. what makes you laugh no matter what? ummm. idk. doing nothing with ruthy.
6. have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past five hours? no
7. who was the last person you talked to? ruthy
8. what do you dislike at the moment? nothing.

HARDER.

1. do you get butterflies around the guys/girls you like? sometimes.
2. do you think it is bad to have sex at your age? no
3. will you get married? hopefully.
4. ?.....this isnt a question.
5. do you lie about your age? only when i'm trying to get into clubs. but they never ask.

VERY PERSONAL.

1. if you were to have sex right now would you use a condom? yes.
2. are you happy with yourself? usually yes.
3. would you change yourself for the person you love? i wouldn't love them if i had to change myself.
4. what do you tell yourself when times get hard? that something worse has happened at some point.

SECRETS.

1. when did you last cry? i cant remember.
2. do you believe in religion? thats like asking if i believe in world history. religion is a thing.
3. when was the last time you fell asleep with a boy? uhhhhhhhhhh i dont know.
4. what is currently on your mind? perkalerk.
5. did you ever wish a close friend to death? why would i wish that?
6. has a guy ever seriously punched you more than once? no.
7. have you ever made out until you ran out of breath? probably.

SHOCKING

1. have you done bad things with your parents near by? i got drunk in my basement, but thats it.
2. have you started a horrible rumour about somebody? no, i've passed them on though.
4. have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs? no, just marijuana.
5. have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night? i dont drink ever.
6. do you think your future will be a good one? i hope

THE DEEP STUFF

1. Do you think you were raised well?yes.
2. Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE? yes.
3. How do you handle stress? pretty well until it builds up really bad and then i'm really mean to everyone.
4. How would you spend your last day alive? at a party eating cousins with ruthy. or having a lot of sex.
5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience? i hide things well
6. If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which one would you choose? my true love. and then i run real quick and get that money.
7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with? i'd live on my own.
8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you choose? dude.
9. Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered a family member? probably not.
10. What is the worst thing you've ever done that your parents DON'T know about? i dont know they dont know a lot.
THE LOVE STUFF

1. Do you think you know the meaning of love? no.
2. The last time you kissed someone...was it someone you see yourself with? idont remember the last person i kissed.
3. Whats the most important part of a relationship in your opinion? supporting the other person.
4. If your parents didn't like the person you were dating, would you lose them? probably not.

THE RANDOM STUFF

1. Do you spend time with the same people always.. or new people? a little of both i suppose.
2. Do you think best friends can be replaced? no
3. Are you the type that would rather stay at other people's houses or have them at yours? i like my bed a lot but i mostly stay at other peoples houses.
4. When is the last time you were truly happy with your life? i'm okay now.
5. Where was your default facebook picture taken? my house.
6. Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it? i've never had one. i dont think i could do it.
7. What is your favorite color? green.
8. What do you do when you have a bad day? call ruthy and bitch.
9. Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"? if you get over it and learn to not be awkward.
10. Who messaged you last? dana facebook chatted me.
11. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? me and sami exchanged our love at school
12. If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you? if i had money.
13. Do you fall for people easily? no. i never like anyone
14. Are you quick to start a fight? i can get defensive.
15. Do your parents really know YOU? idk.
16. Lyrics stuck in your head? of montreal, bunny
17. Are you tired? i'm a little baked.
18. Any friends you'd like to tell how much you appreciate them? i appreciate all my friends.
20. Last time you walked farther than one block? idk.

OFF THE WALL QUESTIONS

1. What Curse Word Do You Use The Most? all of them.
2. Do You Own An Ipod? fosho
3. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep? i dont need anything to help me fall asleep.
4. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk? both.
5. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks? long time ago.
6. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back? maybe. i dont care.
7. Is Anyone In Love With You? i doubt it.
8. Ever Cry In Public? yes. at school. haha.
9. Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoo? sure
10. Whats The Weather Like? 30s and snowing. fuck fuck fuck.
11. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos? sure
12. Do You Pay Attention To The Calories In the box? i read them and eat it anyway.
13. Do You Use Sarcasm? yes
14. Do you get along better with the same sex or opposite? both.
15. Do You Watch The News? sure.
16. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars? falling on a rock by the beach.
17. Who was the last person to make you mad? people at school.
18. Do You Like Anybody? i guess.

our_mantra @ 2009-02-09T11:02:00

2009-02-09T17:04:00Z

All i want to do is sit at home with my puppies and watch true blood and read and sleep.

I puked 3 times yesterday morning. Cool. Then i slept and woke up and then my head hurt like a motherfucker. And then I took excedrin migraine and went back to sleep. Then I ate. Watched Desperate Housewives. Watched some more bullshit. Finished my book. Watched True Blood. Slept.

yes.

our_mantra @ 2009-02-07T19:01:00

2009-02-08T01:11:18Z

Do you ignore people when you're mad/upset with them?
sometimes. but when i see them i'm really mean.

Have you ever been kicked out of your own house?
hell no, my rents to scared of me. haha lolyeahright.

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
definately.

Are you an emotional person?
lately i feel like crying over everything. like pedigree dogfood commercials. i'm stressed i think.

What song are you listening to?
something on the foodnetwork.

Anything you would like to tell anyone?
i dont' think so.

Do you believe everyone deserve's a second chance?
i always give everyone second chances.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive. as hard as you try you'll never forget.

Do you ever think about what your funeral would be like?
no. i just hope there are people there hahaa

Is there places that remind you of someone?
yes?

Who did you last hug?
daniel. haha.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
sure. if i was rich, i would move to london. or new york. or in with john paul so i could steal his money.

Are you in a good mood right now?
sure

Who was the last person you spoke on the phone with for over an hour?
def. ruthy.

Do you need to say anything to someone?
yes. suck my dick. to everyone :)

What made you sad today?
nothing. i was really happy. my guests hair turned out amazing and she loved me :) and gave me 15 dollars :)

Has a boy/girl ever called you Babe or baby?
sure sure

Would you ever date somebody that was the same sex as you?
if i wouldn't ever have to see or feel their vagina. or boobs. so no.

Do you like to make the first move?
i've never made the first move because i'm a pussy.

Do you like to take walks?
if its warm :)

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
no?

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
i dont know, probably someone gay over something gay.

Who do you miss right now?
a lot of people.

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
target and the top one my mom got for me and i dont know where.

Have you ever fallen for your best friend?
yeah, i'm in love with ruthy.

Have you held hands with anyone in the past week?
probably with like daniel or something at school. haha.

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
do i know anyone that DOESNT smoke pot would be a better question.

Do you want kids?
i dont know. there are pregnant girls at school its so mind boggling and weird and kind of cool. but i wouldn't want to be responsible for a living person when i can't take care of myself.

Does cuddling freak you out?
def. not.

When's the last time you talked to your best friend?
like an hour ago.

What are you doing tonight?
partynight.

What do you want more than anything right now?
my legs to wake up.

Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
usually

Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
yeah. definately ruthy. my fam. most of my friends.

Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl?
def.

Do you wish that you were somewhere else right now?
kind of. but i like home, too :)

Are your toe nails painted?
no i took it off last partynight.

Do you sleep with one leg out from under the covers?
sometimes. i did last night.

What side of a heart do you draw first?
right.

Do you have empty alcohol bottles hidden anywhere?
no maam.

Last person you saw other than your family?
everyone at school. melissa was the absolute last.

Could you go a month without cursing?
no no no.

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
depends. hardly any time at all.

Are you a vegetarian?
i was for 2.5 years. and i like meat.

Do you own any band t-shirts?
sure, i dont wear them though. except my bright eyes one :)

What color shirt are you wearing?
black. what else.

What did you go to bed thinking about last night?
the dog wheeeeesperrerer

Any drama in your life?
no, just stupid stuff at school that i'm not involved with.

Do you have any close friends of the opposite sex?
not super super close.

Would you ever date any of your guy friends?
poss.

Have you ever sat on a rooftop and just stared at the stars?
yes. with lucas. and i was very very baked.

Did you have to wake up for any specific reason today?
yes for school.

Do you bite your nails?
no dude.

our_mantra @ 2009-01-29T18:04:00

2009-01-30T00:11:58Z

Who's the first "D" in your contacts?
dana

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
yeah, i bought a new leave in conditioner for my weave and it smells good.

Who was the last person to text you?
pizza shuttle, lol.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with the letter T?
yes maam.

Are you looking forward to anything?
GRADUATING.

Has any one said they loved you today?
no.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
uhhhh. i have no idea. probably my teacher daniel, or my dad.

Are you bipolar?
nope

What are you wearing on your feet?
black shiny flats.

Do you usually have weird dreams?
um, definately.

Do you like your bed?
i dont like my bed. i love it.

Have you ever been to New York City?
yeah nig.

What are you thinking about right now?
eating dinner :)

How has this past week been for you?
sleepy.

Plans for tomorrow?
school.

Do you think that the person you like feels the exact same way you do?
i dont know?

Who are you very disappointed in right now?
someone.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
target.

How long does it take you to shower?
10-20 mintues.

Is the last person you hugged older than you?
i dont remember who it is

Has anyone gotten on your nerves lately?
yessum.

Last night, did you fall asleep smiling?
HAHAHAHAH AT RUTHYS ANSWER. no. i was ready a book and thinking about vampire sex.

Are you afraid of change?
no.

Have you lived in a big city?
i lived in milwaukee. thats why i'm so hood.

Does your family own a business?
nope.

Are you in a good mood right now?
yeah mostly.

Who woke you up?
the alarm and a headache.

Do you miss someone?
not horribly.

What time did you wake up this morning?
805 but then i skipped school this morning and woke up again at 11

What is on your bed right now?
a naked black man.

i wish.

Is your bedroom clean?
absolutely not.

What did you do today?
woke up. washed mah weave. dried my weave. put some makeup on and got dressed. drove to school. got a salad from rocky's. went to school. played a million games. made a poster. did some more bullshit. cleaned. when home.

What are your plans for the weekend?
no clue nig.

What was the last reason why you were mad?
because i was tired and lost is slow.

our_mantra @ 2009-01-25T10:59:00

2009-01-25T17:10:15Z

When was the last time you had butterflies?
when i fell asleep at the wheel kind of and switched lanes. hahaha.

If you could push one person off of a mountain, who would it be ?
uhhh. idk.

How's your heart lately?
dec.

Is someone on your mind right now ?
yeah ruthy cuz i got this from her.

Do you want to fix things with anybody?
i suppose.

Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don't like ?
depends.

Honestly, what's on your mind?
shut up.

What is your relationship status?
all the single ladies, all the single ladies.

Have you ever told your mom/ dad you were in love ?
no. hahah.

Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
i guess. but it'd be gay sometimes.

Someone knocks on your window at 2 AM, what do you say ?
no.

Have you ever talked on the phone in the shower/ bathtub?
no...your phone would break in the shower.

What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
celery with raisins

How do you feel when someone kisses you on the forehead?
nice.

Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
ruthy hahahha.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i'll probably be drunk.

What is the last thing you got in trouble for with your parents ?
my dad thought i put a dent in the MV but i didn't, so i didnt get in trouble.

Do you act differently around the person you like?
...no?

Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
uhhh. no.

Do you expect your ex to call or text you ?
girlfriend, i aint got no ex's.

Do you want to see someone this very minute ?
sure.

When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
i dont know who it is. haha. ruthy or jess. ruthy last night. jess FOREVER AGO.

What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
i dont wear underwear anymore. haha. but seriously.

What was the last thing you ate?
applesauce!

How is the weather right now?
cold as hermione's vagina. lollll.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
katie

Do you wear contacts?
i can. but hardly ever.

Are you too shy to ask someone out?
yeah probably.

Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
uh, my neck would snap.

Chocolate or Vanilla?
chocolate. like my men.

Favorite Flower?
lilly.

When was the last time you were given flowers?
for a birthday.

What did you do yesterday?
a perm, a haircut, dinner with ruthy, weave, ashley.

Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
i dont think so.

Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
not really.

Have you ever fired a gun?
no

Do you like to travel by plane?
sure.

How many pillows do you sleep with?
4 on my bed.

Are you missing someone?
eh.

Do you have a Tattoo?
2 nig.

What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
jake. he is my friend.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
have i ever dated anyone?

Who will you be with tonight?
i dont know.

What did you have for lunch today?
i havent eaten lunch yet!

Last movie you watched?
ummmmm. i actually dont know! ihavent had time for movies. so probably pineapple express last week.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
sleeping

Where did your last hug take place?
ummm. i'm not sure.

Last time you went to the movies?
monday!

Are you tired right now?
nah. the fucking dogs just woke me up.

Last time you gave someone a dirty look?
i'm always giving everyone dirty looks.

Last time you really laughed?
when me and ruthy sit in parking lots. probably.

What shoes did you wear today? What brand are they?
barefoot.

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
yes

Can you take a bra off with one hand?
def.

Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
ruthy.

If someone liked you would you want them to tell you?
yes? actually no. i would like them to not say anything so i never date anyone. ever.

Last person you told a secret to?
idk. probably ruthy i'm sure.

What will you do tomorrow?
suck the day's dick.

What are you wearing right now?
pajamas.

Do you carry a book bag?
no girlfriend. i carry a kit full of haircutting tools.

Last person to leave you a voicemail?
mom.

Who will you next hang out with?
probably ruthy. or dana or something

What are you about to go do?
eat.

What color are your toe nails painted?
really chipped and shitty black.

Last thing you drank?
water.

Do you ever flip your pillow to the cold side?
sometimes in the summer.

What were you doing at 1:00 AM this morning?
falling asleep on the free way.

Have you ever done yoga?
yeah it was gay cuz i was bad haha.

What're you doing today?
chillin.

The underwear you're wearing, where did you get them?
n/a

Is opening presents fun?
sure

Have you showered yet today?
no shit.

Is there a secret you've never told your parents?
probably

our_mantra @ 2009-01-15T22:46:00

2009-01-16T04:46:45Z

i've been at school for 12 hours straight two days in a row, yesterday and today.

i'm fucking tired.

our_mantra @ 2009-01-09T17:44:00

2009-01-10T00:10:21Z

2008.

best _____ of the year:
1. party: the one where i puked and don't remember half of it, almost all at the house, and amandas during high school.
2. show: lost and weeds.
3. cd: i guess my favorite of the year was...i dont even know what came out. feed the animals, girl talk. that came out in 2008.
4. movie: milk was my favorite so far. and pineapple express :)
5. song: i dont know i want to say conor because i love conor but i dont think he came out with anything besides this self titled shit. um. so i will say landlocked blues because its good.
7. concert: girl talk
6. experience: beauty school. and lolla. and girltalk.
8. book: any chuck p.
9. month: august. and september.
10. day: november 4th. where i got fucked up at girltalk, made out with a random boy, and obama won.

worst ____ of the year:
1. party: anything not involving alc.
2. show: earth's black hole. it was on history and it sucked.
3. cd: rihanna. fuck that shit.
4. movie: hmmm. i dont know. i normally like all movies.
5. song: any fucking rihanna. fuck her.
6. experience: being really stressed after school started and breaking the FUCK OUT.
7. concert: minus the bear where kelly and i sat there and named off ironic things.
8. book: there was no bad books i read, but the worst book i've EVER read was a seperate peace.
9. month: may. i wanted to get out of school.
10. day: when lucy died.

hopes for 2009:
1. predict something that you think will happen in 2009?: i will graduate from beauty school.
2. what do you hope changes about your country?: we re-gain some respect in the world.
3. what do you hope for yourself?: to get a haircut. and lose some weight.
4. what do you hope for your family?: good things.
5. what do you hope for your best friend?: that she gets laid before the world ends.

during 2008:
1. where were you when it began?: wasted as fuck on the floor smoking hookah and making out with everyone in the room. and finishing off my like, 2039rd bottle of booze. at kyles.
2. did you stay up?: yeah
3. what was your new year resolution: i didn't have one.
4. how many boy/girlfriends?: NONE NIGGA!!
5. broke up?: nope.
6. have any crushes?: sort of.
7. care to mention names?: suck my dick?
8. new friends?: mhm!
9. had to say goodbye?: ...no?
10. missed anyone?: yes
11. win anything?: a free soda when i buy a soda.
12. best place you went to?: sleep. my school :) lolla.
13. worst place you went to?: work.
14. happiest moment?: there were lots.
15. how was your birthday?: shitty. i did nothing except go to dinner with my family. and i didn't get any presents except money from my parents. cool.
16. best present?: i didn't get like, anything this year.

YEAR:
10 Things You Will Never Forget:
1. school.
2. girltalk.
3. my puppies.
4. getting my license.
5. getting my tattoos.
6. lucy dying :(
7. puking for the first time while wasted.
8. the first time i smoked.
9. i dont fucking know.
10. my first haircut!

9 Things You Regret
getting strep.

8 Movies You Saw:
1. milk- amazing.
2. seven pounds- good.
3. dark knight- good.
4. pineapple express- hilarious.
5. horton hears a who- amazing!
6. valkyrie- good.
7. bolt- amazing!
8. wall-e.- amazing!

7 Things You Learned:
1. go to school.
2. listen to what your teachers tell you no matter how defiant you want to be.
3. you can try your hardest cutting someones fucking hair and they still will be too picky about it.
4. i like getting fucked. up.
5. being negative gets you nowhere.
6. not complaining makes everything better, even when you are not happy with the situation.
7. you sometimes can't get enough sleep.

6 Things I Bought:
1. food.
2. clothes.
3. alcohol.
4. food.
5. food.
6. kleenex.

5 Songs You Couldn't Stop Singing:
1. right now- akon. lol.
2. JUST DANCE- LADY GAGA. lloll
3. shut the club down- girltalk.
4. landlocked blues- bright eyes.
5. ganja babe- michael franti.

4 People You Met:
1. amy.
2. tommy jacobs.
3. adam?
4. everyone at school even if i hate them i guess.

3 Things You Look Forward to Next Year:
1. graduating.
2. hopefully moving out.
3. my puppies growing up.

2 People You Love:
1. myself. LOL.
2. ruthy :)

1 Thing You Want For The Holidays:
1. your dick in my mouth.

The Year 2008:

[P E O P L E]
1. Best friends? ruthy.
2. Best boyfriend/girlfriend? uh.
3. Lost any friends? sort of?
4. Gained any friends? yeah!
5. Met a new good friend? yes

[P L A C E S]
1. Went out of the country? not this year.
2. Moved? no.
3. New school? The Academy Waukesha Paul Mitchell Partner School. cool!
4. How many times on an airplane? none
5. Road trips? chicago. on a train from kenosha.

[Y O U]
1. Have you changed? yeah. i think i'm more positive.
2. New look? not really. i only wear black now.
3. Any new additions? uh. tattoos?
4. Biggest conflict this year? the bitches in my school.
5. Most depressed time this year? uhhhhlsdaflk when lucy died in august.

[L O V E]
1. Did you fall in love? ha.
2. Did you get heartbroken? ha.
3. Who was your summer love? HA.
4. How many boyfriends/girlfriends this year? ha.
5. Favorite date? ha.

[S E A S O N S]

1. Favorite Season? summer.
2. Least favorite season? summer. yeah. i hate and love it. eat me.
3. Good birthday? nope.
4. Any snow this year? yeah.
5. Highest temperature? like 95 or some bull shit.

[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S]

Snuck out- dont need too.
Met a person who will change your life- i dont know yet. my life isn't over.
Kept your resolution- i didn't have one.
Got arrested- nope
Had a first something-yes
Drank Alcohol- yes
Smoked - yes
Did anything illegal- yes
Kissed a boy/girl- yes
Had a crush- sort of.
Liked someone who didn't like you- yeah
Got bad grades- um, definately NOT. well in highschool. hahha.
Got suspended-nope
Moved states- nope
Got a myspace- i've had myspace for like, 5 years, wtf.
Spent over 1 million dollar- if i fucking had a million dollars, fucker.
Went streaking-nope
Done something you shouldn't have- yes
Kept a secret- not really
Told a secret- not really.
Done something you totally regret- nope.
Changed your view on things- maybe. no. yes.

our_mantra @ 2009-01-08T18:21:00

2009-01-09T00:28:40Z

Would you...

-Get drunk? yes
-Get high? lol
-Hit me? uh.
-Yell at me? sure.
-Meet someone you met on the internet in person? sure
-Cry during a movie? if it is sad
-Cry in public? i guess.
-Eat squid? mmmmhm
-Kill someone for money? if it was enough.
-Marry more than one person (if it was legal)? hell yeah. hahah
-Go hunting? no.
-Sleep with a famous person just because they're famous? sure.
-Write a survey for me to do? no.

What is your favorite trait in:

-a boy: back.
-a girl: THEIR VAGINA. MMM.
-a teacher: being cool
-a friend: not being a douche bag.
-a parent: a chill one.
-a pet: a cuddly one :).
-a boyfriend/girlfriend: being good in bed. LOL yeah.

If you could build your dream home...

-Where would it be? on top of my house.
-How big would it be? fucking big. so that i would get lost on my way to the bathroom and old people would come and gawk at it after their sunday brunch.
-What sort of furniture would be in it? the leather couch that is in libby's dad's study.-What would it be by? a road.
-Would people live in it with you? i do believe so. ruthy. because by that time we'll be married.
-Who? people that i would let live there and that i don't hate.
-How much would it cost? i'd fucking build that shit with ply wood.
-Would you have pets in it? ratties and puppies and kitties and NO FUCKING COCKATOOS.

What do you think about...

-Religion: in theory a cool idea, but people take it too literal.
-The war on terrorism: not a war on terrorism.
-President Bush: no
-President Clinton: cool.
-Love: evasive.
-Hate: not evasive.
-Art: fartsy.
Write one thing you like about...

Courtney: SLUT!
Bridget: uh.
Theresa: seeing her at the pet store!
Rachel: ricky weeks.
Ashley: angel from heaven.
Chris: LOL.
Brittaney Check: nice.
Lauren: hilarious when drunk.
Simone: hippy.
Elise: quiet.
Me: who
Jess: brewers
Larry: gasian.
Derrick: funny.
Tommy: lol
Cassie: LOL

our_mantra @ 2009-01-06T22:18:00

2009-01-07T04:18:25Z

OH BTW

FUCK. ISREAL.

our_mantra @ 2009-01-06T22:14:00

2009-01-07T04:18:02Z

Things in my mind:
1) i hate everyone
2) i'm glad i only see the people that i see now.
3) i'm fucking tired of the shit on tv about the converter boxes. it's not that hard.
4) my dogs keep trying to steal my antibiotics and its pissing me off.
5) i can't yell at them because i can't talk.
6) my neck fucking kills.
7) i want to watch the rest of dexter but dana is in floria.
8) i cant fucking swallow.
9) i'm thinking of cutting someone out of my life.
10) its ruthy.
11) lol yeah right.
12) i dont know why i wrote that.
13) i went to the doctor yesterday and my blood pressure was really high and it was because i was taking too many cold pills.
14) so i made my dad buy me the ones that don't raise your blood pressure like the other kinds do.
15) fuck you!

our_mantra @ 2009-01-05T18:56:00

2009-01-06T00:56:42Z

i have strep and i'm going to die.

our_mantra @ 2009-01-05T12:29:00

2009-01-05T18:40:40Z

Did you watch the ball drop?:
yeah and then adam sprayed me with champagne.

How did you spend new years eve?:
i went to the house and got wasted. then passed out in courtneys bed with adam and lauren because pierce didn't have pants on.

Who was the first person you texted?:
i think it was courtney asking her where she was haha.

Who was the first person to text you?:
i dont know

What is your new years resolution?:
i dont have one.

How old will you be turning in 2009?:
19.

Did you like the person you were in 2008?:
mostly.

Will this year be better than last year?:
hopefully cuz i will have graduated at the end and hopefully make mo money.

Did you lose a loved one in 2008?:
no

Who was the first person you kissed in 2009?:
katie. fredricks. what what.

Do you already have a bf/gf for 2009?:
nope

Do you want a bf/gf in 2009?:
i don't care.

Will you move in 2009?:
maybe.

Will your friends group change?:
i don't know.

Who was your best friend in 2008?:
ruthay.

Will they still be your best friend all of 2009?:
most likely.

Whats the first song you listened to in 2009?:
noooo idea.

Do you want to let 2008 go?:
sure.

Whats the best gift you received in 2008?:
money. ahha.

Did you enjoy your new years?:
sure!

--

Did the last person you kiss have tattoos, if so what?
if it was katie, which i think it was, yes.

How did you get your last bruise?
i don't know. it's on my arm though.

When is the last time you cried?
i'm really sick and i cried because of a commercial about african kids yesterday. lolll

What was the last movie you watched?
dark knight for the fucking 2048th time cuz the neighbors were over.

Do you hate anyone?
sure sure.

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
probably

Who was the last person to call you?
mom.

Is there a person of the opposite or same sex that means a lot to you?
sure!

Who's in your profile picture with you?
ashley :D

Do you like Red Bull?
mhm

What are you doing tomorrow?
school.

Ever broken a bone?
no. i'm fucking graceful.

Last time you had pizza?
like...friday or something.

Is there something you need to tell someone?
not really.

How many days until your next birthday?
um. like. 8 months.

What have you eaten today?
cold pills, water, cough drops. soon tea.

Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
fug.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
like a million with roxanne and katie.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
my mom

Are you currently sad about anything?
being sickkk :(

Are you tired?
no just sick.

What does your last text in your inbox say?
"i can. sorry i'm really busy"

What color is the shirt you are wearing?
black. whats new.

Where were you at noon yesterday?
sleeping.

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
sure! i think it was adam the other night when i saw him at work.

Do you have trust issues?
i trust a lot of people.

Who is the last person who wrote a letter to you on paper?
roz!

Have you ever taken medications that were prescribed to someone else?
yeah, but nothing like, intense.

Do you dance?
yeah

Name something that made you frown today?
sick sick.

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
eh

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
yes.

What's the last thing that felt good?
lol um. the tea felt good to drunk.

How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else?
i don't have an ex, so i would not care!

our_mantra @ 2008-12-01T14:19:00

2008-12-01T20:20:14Z

i've had lots of naughty dreams lately

=O

our_mantra @ 2008-11-21T23:22:00

2008-11-22T05:41:18Z

A
- Age: 18
- Annoyance: call of duty gun battles inside my ear right now.
- Animal: puppies and kitties and ratties
- Actor: lots of different ones.
B
- Beer: yeah brah.
- Birthday/Birthplace: august 22nd, st mary's hospital in milwaukee
- Best Friends: uhmmmmm ruthy and courtney and a ton of people.
- Body Part on opposite sex: back. and arms.
- Been in Love: nope
- Been bitched at: a lot.
- Believe in yourself?: for sure.
- Believe in miracles: yeah
- Believe in God: kind of.
- Believe in Ghosts/Spirits: yeah.
- Believe in Evolution: yes. maybe not monkey to human evolution, but there's scientific proof of evolution.

C
- Car: none existant. i drive mom's minivan.
- Candy: ummm. idk.
- Color: green and violet.
- Cried in school: yeah haah
- Chocolate/Vanilla: depends.
- Chinese/Mexican: both fosho.
- Cake or pie: cake
- Country to visit: i'm not sure. everywhere.
D
- Day or Night: i guess night. but day is nice too.
- Dream vehicle: we gettin a escalade.
- Dance in the rain?: uhhhhh. if there is a reason to?
- Do the splits?: ha no.

E
- Eggs: a delight.
- Eyes: green. lately i've noticed more blue..?
- Everyone has: hair.
- Ever failed a class? NOPE. whattup.
- First crush: i don't remember. this kid jake at my grade school.
- Full name: ALYSSA JEAN OLSON!
- First thoughts waking up: i dont want to go to school.
- Food: lately, spaghetti. i've been kicking ass at making it.

G
- Greatest Fear: not finding a person that i love.
- Goals: to become a rich and famous hairdresser and to get shears that are custom made out of white gold so if any muhfuckers try to steal them, I'LL FUCKING KNOW WHO IT WAS.
- Get along with your parent(s)?: most of the time!
- Good luck charm: i don't really have one.

H
- Hair Color: white ass.
- Height: freakish. 6ft.
- Happy: yes
- Holiday: thanks.fucking.giving.
- How do you want to die? not of cancer.
- Health freak?: uhhh...right.
- Hate: being sick :(

I - in your preferred sex
Eye color: pretty.
Hair Color: pretty.
Height: as tall as or taller than i.
Clothing Style: sort of fashionable.
Characteristics: funny. wont make fun of my hp obsession. cool. wouldnt get really mad if i fucked up their hair.

I
- Ice Cream: its too cold.
- Instrument: fucking cello. idk. i think i'd look pretty sweet playing it.

J
- Jewelry: gold looks best on my skin.
- Job: hurstylist, whattup.
K
- Kids: make me nervous
- Kickboxing or karate: kickboxing. i like beating bitches.
- Keep a journal?: a LIVEjournal. hah.

L
- Longest Car Ride: up north. or probably in germany at some point.
- Love: pretty nice?
- Laughed so hard you cried: yep
- Love at first sight: i have not witnessed this.

M
- Milk flavor: cold.
- Movie: harry potter. wall-e. um. and good ones, too.
- Mooned anyone?: nope
- Marriage: like everyone at school is engaged and i'm behind on the times.
- Motion sickness? no
- McDonald’s or BK: MCDOS

N
- Number of Siblings: 1
- Number of Piercing: 7. 2 nose, gauged ears (00), double hole, cartilage

O
- One wish: to be happy!

P
- Place you’d like to live: a nice place.
- Perfect Pizza: whatev.
- Pepsi/Coke: coke. except pepsi makes mountain dew.

Q
- Quail: libby.
- Questionnaires: kill time.

R
- Reason to cry: if i'm sad?
- Reality T.V: good on bravo.
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: yeah

S
- Song: idk
- Shoe size: 10. shuttup i'm tall.
- Salad Dressing: french
- Skipped school: uh huh
- Smoking: sureeee
- Shower dailly? ha no.
- Sing well?: ha no.
- In the shower? no. i just get out.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: either if they are good ones.

T
- Time for bed: between 1030 and 12, or later. whatever. 630 am if ashley is involved haha.
- Thunderstorms: are cool i guess.
- TV: is entertaining
- Touch your tongue to your nose: fosho.

U
- Unpredictable: i dont think so.

V
- Vegetable you hate: none really.
- Vegetable you love: i enjoy...corn? haha idk all of them.
- Vacation spot: probably up north. thats the only place you get a real vacation.

W
- Weakness: my puppies :D and booze =-o
- When you grow up: i'll cut someones hair.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: ruthy. maybe courtney
- Who makes you laugh the most: ummm. ruthy and some random bitches at school.
- Wanted to be a model? just for a hair show, but i didn't get picked cuz my hair was too cool aready.
- Where do we go when we die: somewhere cool.
- Worst weather: either really fucking hot or really fucking cold

X
-X-Rays: i had one on my leg once cuz my knee was fucked up and on my chest to see if i had whooping cough. i did.

Y
-Year it is now: 2008
-Yellow: warm.

Z
- Zoo animal: GIRAFFES.
- Zodiac sign: leo nig.

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you? kitty :D
2. Last person to see you cry? ummmm my mom and dad after my shears were stolen :(
3. Went to the movies with you? dana and jessie for madagascar 2
4. You went to the mall with? alyssa
5. You went to dinner with? idk! it's been a while. oh mcdos with dana.
6. You talked to on the phone? ruthay.
7. Made you laugh? my mom. we were making fun of jessie. haha.

our_mantra @ 2008-11-21T19:41:00

2008-11-22T01:53:33Z

So my school has a national caper event...meaning we have a competition amoung us to sell X amount of products and the first 10 people in each school win a huge prize.

This years is a trip to Vegas if we sell 50 bag deals. We get to have hands on classes with the biggest names in the Paul Mitchell company, John Paul DeJoria, Winn Claybaugh, and Robert Cromeans. This is seriously a once in a lifetime opportunity.

If you or your families or anyone you know would possibly be interested, you would seriously be doing me a huge favor.

These are the packages:

Extra Body:
1 Extra Body daily shampoo
-Thickens fine and normal hair
1 Extra Body sculpting foam
-Firm hold thickening foam
1 Extra Body firm finishing spray
-Firm hold, volume and shine.

Color Care:
1 Color Protect Daily Shampoo
-Gentle care for color treated hair
1 Color Protect Daily Conditioner
-Detangles and helps repair color treated hair
1 Bottle of Hold Me Tight
-Rapid drying finishing spray with a strong clean hold

Moisture:
1 Instant Moisture daily shampoo
-Hydrates and revives the hair
1 bottle of The Detangler
-Instant detangler which smooths and softens hair
1 bottle of Worked Up
-Rapid drying working spray with flexible clean hold

Smoothing:
1 Super Skinny Daily Shampoo
-Smoothes and softens unruly hair
1 Super Skinny Daily Treatment
-Smoothes and softens unruly hair with thermal protection
1 Super Skinny Serum
-Smoothes and conditions unruly hair, reduces drying time, seals hair with a clean shine

Tea Tree: (great for men!!)
1 Tea Tree shampoo
-Fresh and clean invigorating cleanser
1 Tea Tree Special conditioner
-Instant detangling and invigorating conditioner
1 Tea Tree Body Bar
-Exfoliating bar, provides a refreshing clean feel.

All of these are 31.50 and the Tea Tree package is 27.50 so it's like getting a product free or saving about 25%. If you know ANYONE who would be interested please let me know! They make great holiday gifts!!

our_mantra @ 2008-11-16T11:42:00

2008-11-16T17:48:30Z

Where is the last person you kissed?
i have no idea.

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
i'm pretty sure.

Who was the last person who called you?
i dunno. amy.

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
coffee.

What are your plans for this weekend?
none.

Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
both.

Kissed someone in a truck?
no.

Is it cute when a guy/girl calls you baby?
usually.

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
a couple.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
watched part of sex drive.

Do you give out second chances easily?
usually.

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
yeah.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive.

Where is your cell phone?
in my pocket.

Where did you sleep last night?
in courtneys bed

What time did you go to sleep last night?
1245/1

What woke you up today?
the sun and courtney's phone.

Your most recent ex shows up randomly at your house what do you say?
you arent a person!

Have you ever been given roses by a bf/gf?
no.

When was the last time you talked to your best friends?
usually everyday.

Have you ever been in a difficult relationship?
no. well, i guess. sort of not really.

Anyone on your mind?
not really. i was wondering what happened to lucas earlier.

If someone gave you 1,000 dollars, would you spend or save it?
save most of it. spend some of it.

How much older than you is the last person that kissed you?
i dont know. i didn't know him.

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
not really.

When you shut your alarm off do you tend to fall back asleep?
yeah.

Are any of your friends pregnant?
jessica bramel is pregnant and she's sort of my friend.

Do you think you'll make a good parent?
i dont know. right now, no.

What were you doing at 9 this morning?
sleeping

Have you ever kissed someone who's name starts with a D?
yeah.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
no. i'm watching monk :D

Do you have an older brother?
no

Have you made a mistake this past week?
no. just on a haircut, a little bit.

What are you doing tonight?
working. maybe something after.

How long can you go without your mobile phone?
not long

Have you ever kissed someone who's name starts with a J?
yeah. lots.

What did you last eat??
coffee

Have you ever kissed a blonde haired brown eyed person?
i dont know. probably. wait yeah.

our_mantra @ 2008-10-22T21:50:00

2008-10-23T02:53:49Z

school is great.

i'm on the floor starting next week. well i'm on the floor now, but not by myself. next week i'm by myself.

so if you need a fucking haircut, make and appointment :D

now i'm doing danas hair and trying to make mine more healthy, then we are watching donnie darko and drankin.

this is my life :D

i've ditched lucas for 3 nights in a row and i feel bad and i told him so and he goes "aw no it's totally cool, it's all good. yeah, no, it's great, for sure don't worry about it!"
what a stoner.

i'm watching frasier.

and then i'm taking a shower which i'm really excited about :D

but mostly i'm excited to shave.

oh yeah, my hair is 4 different colors. including pink, turquoise, purple, and yellow.

i went overboard :D

our_mantra @ 2008-10-12T10:39:00

2008-10-12T15:42:03Z

last night:
1)hole in the ceiling.
2)getting really baked with lucas on the back porch and watching a movie in the bathroom window.
3)douchey neighbors.
4)hilarious.

so yeah. kid fell through the ceiling into courtney's room.
me and lucas didn't think they were serious about someone falling through the floor, but it happened.

and it was scary and courtney was very angry so lucas and i hid.

:D

ashley ate raw bacon this morning.
and is still fucked up.

i'm at lovesac.
getting ready for mah hur dyeing appointment.

our_mantra @ 2008-10-06T13:25:00

2008-10-06T18:26:00Z

so this thing happened at school on saturday where these people came to my school looking for hair models for a show thats going on in the dells yesterday and today.
and so i went
and i walk in and it's all these hugely famous hair stylists and i nearly puked and i was really nervous. they were robert cromeans's team. he's huge with paul mitchell and in the industry in general.
and they wanted me to be one.
but the front of my hair was too short.
and i already had pink in my hair and stuff.
:(:(:(
but thats okay because i met them and it was scary. :D